[ The touch to his waist brings him back into his body and out of drunken feeling. A majority of his time has been taken with the thought of how wrong things had gone between them, what he didn't see to miss things so important that the man he trusted implicitly had gotten lost so acutely. Loyalty has always been the most important thing to Anakin, Obi-Wan knows this. It's loyalty that has him here, trusting Obi-Wan with his literal life when neither of them understand the potential danger of this act. He had not asked any probing questions other than affirming what they were going to do.
He has always assumed that Anakin knew that those feelings were returned, but he wonders now — has he ever said it in a way Anakin understands? He had never told the boy he loved him until they were here, after fourteen years; he had assumed Anakin knew. But does he? Really?
Obi-Wan knows he is attached — though he had not realized quite how deeply — but he has never said as much. The Jedi Code forbids it and therefore doesn't come up in conversation, but saying it or ignoring it does not make it so. As his throat works and his tongue soothes the puncture wound he's feeding from, a sort of blank understanding settles over him. Like reaching the deepest point of meditation and finding that miraculous, hard to attain sense of peace. ]
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He has always assumed that Anakin knew that those feelings were returned, but he wonders now — has he ever said it in a way Anakin understands? He had never told the boy he loved him until they were here, after fourteen years; he had assumed Anakin knew. But does he? Really?
Obi-Wan knows he is attached — though he had not realized quite how deeply — but he has never said as much. The Jedi Code forbids it and therefore doesn't come up in conversation, but saying it or ignoring it does not make it so. As his throat works and his tongue soothes the puncture wound he's feeding from, a sort of blank understanding settles over him. Like reaching the deepest point of meditation and finding that miraculous, hard to attain sense of peace. ]